documenting the journey

lolita at work suggetions

2012-08-31T00:23:58Z

Most classic lolita is more then acceptable at work. I worked at a hospital and I was encouraged to wear toned down lolita. I would stick to tailored blouses, plain dresses/skirts with either a simple floral pattern or one color, simple boleros/cardigans, hair pieces should be simple flower or barrette, opaque or patterned tights with a comfortable shoe. You will rarely have need for a petticoat but you can always wear bloomers. Classic lolita fits in nicely with business attire and I believe one of the brands makes suits off and on... I want to say Innocent World but I am not sure.

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porcelina of the vast oceans

2012-08-13T23:16:42Z

love this music.....billy really stuck with me. it makes me feel sad letting go of him. but billy is not bringing good things into the universe. i will find music that is just as good if not better than billy :) it'll be okay.

As far as you take me, that's where I believe
~~the realm of soft delusions, flosting on the leaves~~
on a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me
~~as all the thought police, are closing in for sleep~~
the dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
the steam of my misfortunes
has given me the power to be afraid
and in my mind im everyone
and in my mind

Without a care in this whole world
without a care in this whole world
Without a care in thia life
It's what you take the makes it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue

In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
the light of all thats good, the light of all thats true
To the fringes gladly, I walk unadored
with gods and their creations
~~with filth and disease~~
Porcelina, she waits for me there
with seashell hissing lullabyes
and whispers fathomed deep inside my own
hidden thoughts and alibis
my secret thouts come alive

Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right

And in my mind I'm everyone
in my mind I'm everyone
In my mind I'm everyone of you
You make it right
it's all alright
You make it right

Porcelina of the oceans blue

Read more at http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/404/#VUQQXFhPxxIQP5vR.99

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say it ain't so

2012-07-29T15:16:40Z

this one was easy not to listen to again but makes me sad i choose to not let this be in my life..since high school....but this is attracting not being able to set boundaries...and i can't do that. nor attract adiction into my life.

Somebody's Heine'
is crowdin' my icebox
somebody's cold one
is givin' me chills
Guess I'll just close my eyes
Flip on the tele'
Wrestle with Jimmy
Something is bubbling
Behind my back
The bottle is ready to blow
Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a lifetaker
I can't confront you
I never could do
That which might hurt you
So try and be cool
When I say
This way is a waterslide away from me
That takes you further every day
So be cool

Dear Daddy, I write you
In spite of years of silence
You've cleaned up, found Jesus
Things are good or so I hear
This bottle of Steven's
Awakens ancient feelings
Like father, stepfather
The son is drowning in the flood
Read more at http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/5250/#0MAc3HpCK82kKp8b.99

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shake it off

2012-07-29T14:28:11Z

appears to be positive but it's not really. it's attracting situations where people are treating you wrong. if nothing bad happens in the first place then you don't nee to shake anything off.

Everybody just, everybody just bounce, bounceEverybody just, everybody just bounce, bounce
I gotta shake it off~~'Cause the loving ain't the sameAnd you keep on playing gamesLike you know I'm here to stay~~
I gotta shake, shake it off~~Just like the Calgon commercialI really gotta get up outta hereAnd go somewhere~~
I gotta shake it offGotta make that moveFind somebody whoAppreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake, shake it offGotta do what's best for me~~Baby and that meansI gotta shake you off~~
~~By the time you get this messageIt's gonna be too lateSo don't bother paging me'Cause I'll be on my way~~
See I grabbed all my diamonds and clothesJust ask your momma she knowsYou're gonna miss me babyHate to say, "I told you so"
Well at first I didn't knowBut now it's clear to meYou would cheat with all your freaksAnd lie compulsively
~~So I packed up my Louis VuittonJumped in your ride and took offYou'll never ever find a girlWho loves you more than me~~
I gotta shake it off~~Cause the loving ain't 'the sameAnd you keep on playing gamesLike you know I'm here to stay~~
I gotta shake, shake it off~~Just like the Calgon commercialI really gotta get up outta hereAnd go somewhere~~
I gotta shake it offGotta make that moveFind somebody whoAppreciates all the love I give
~~Boy I gotta shake, shake it offGotta do what's best for meBaby and that meansI gotta shake you off~~
I gotta shake, shake, shake shake, shake it offShake, shake, shake shake, shake it offShake, shake, shake shake, shake it offShake, shake, shake shake, shake it off
I found out about a gangOf your dirty little deedsWith this one and that oneBy the pool, on the beach, in the streetsHeard y'all was
Hold up, my phone's breakin' upI'ma hang up and call the machine right backI gotta get this off of my mind
You wasn't worth my timeSo I'm leaving you behind'Cause I need a real love in my life
~~Save this recording becauseI'm never coming back homeBaby I'm goneDon't cha know~~
I gotta shake you off~~'Cause the loving ain't the sameAnd you keep on playing gamesLike you know I'm here to stay~~
I gotta shake, shake it off~~Just like the Calgon commercialI really gotta get up outta hereAnd go somewhere~~
I gotta shake it offGotta make that moveFind somebody whoAppreciates all the love I give
~~Boy I gotta shake, shake it offGotta do what's best for meBaby and that meansI gotta shake you off~~
I gotta shake, shake, shake shake, shake it offShake, shake, shake shake, shake it offShake, shake, shake shake, shake it offShake, shake, shake shake, shake it off
I just gotta shake you off'Cause the loving ain't the sameAnd you keep on playing gamesLike you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake, shake it offJust like the Calgon commercialI really gotta get up outta hereAnd go somewhere
I gotta shake you offGotta make that moveFind somebody whoAppreciates all the love I give
~~Boy I gotta shake, shake you offGotta do what's best for meBaby and that meansI gotta shake you offI gotta shake you off~~
Everybody just, everybody just bounce, bounceI gotta shake, shake it offEverybody just, everybody just bounce, bounceI gotta shake, shake you off

Read more: MARIAH CAREY - SHAKE IT OFF LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/shake-it-off-lyrics-mariah-carey.html#ixzz221OeF1NN
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tbtf

2012-07-24T01:30:44Z

hard to let this one go...LOVE the music..love th pace..not really into shaming sex.
Cats and crafts
put you in a tiny box that's filled with our victims who
can't explain how they love their moms
and all the hands that retreat
they try to slip right down their pussy
but theres nothing that you thought is wrong

But you are too beautiful to fuck
you're too beautiful
you are too beautiful to fuck
you're too beautiful

~~Slice my eyes~~
took me through another night that goes all night through
~~tries to seize what their hearts have lost~~
my best friend took me in
~~and made me down decide my own sins~~
and I said "can you
please forgive the love?"

'Cause you are too beautiful to fuck
you're too beautiful
you are too beautiful to fuck
you're too beautiful
Read more at ~~http://w~~ww.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858687027/#eklRtcStzy63Uqfi.99

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metric empty

2012-07-24T01:14:15Z

There was no way out, the only way out was to give in
There was no way out, the only way out was to give in
How I love to give in

Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We couldn't see what was coming
[| From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/metric-lyrics/empty-lyrics.html |]

Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet

I'm so glad that I'm an island now

Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all

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nigga what, nigga who

2012-07-15T01:34:02Z

obviously needed to let that go..writing that lowered my vibe.
[Jay-Z]
Uh-huh uh-huh, gi-gi gi-geyeah
Roc-a-Fella y'all, uh-huh uh-huh, Jigga
Timbaland shit, nine-eight BEYOTCH
Say what, say what? Uh-huh uh-huh, follow me beotch

Nigga what, nigga who?
Nigga what, nigga who?
Switcha flow, getcha dough
~~Can't fuck with this Roc-a-Fella shit doe~~
Switcha flow, getcha dough
~~Can't fuck with this Roc-a-Fella shit doe~~

[Jay-Z] -- first four lines overlap the section above
~~Can't fuck with me~~
They ain't ready yet
Uh-huh uh-huh
Yeah, yeah
Motherfuckers wanna act loco, hit em wit, numerous
shots with the fo'-fo'
Faggots runnin to the Po-Po's, smoke em like cocoa
Fuck rap, coke by the boatload
Fuck dat, on the run-by, gun high, one eye closed
Left holes through some guy clothes
Stop your bullshittin, glock with the full clip
Motherfuckers better duck when the fool spit
One shot could make a nigga do a full flip
See the nigga layin shocked when the bullet hit
And hey ma, how you, know niggaz wanna buy you
But see me I wanna _Fuck for Free_ like Akinyele
Take this ride 'til you feel it inside ya belly
If it's tight get the K-Y Jelly
All night get you wide up inside the telly
Side to side, til you say Jay-Z you're too much for me

Chorus: Jay-Z (with Amil-lion)

(Nigga what?) Make you think you can fuck with me
(Nigga who?) Recognize girl, Jay to the Z
*repeat 3X*
(Nigga what?) Make you think you can fuck with me
(Nigga who?) Recognize bitch, Jay to the motherfuckin Z

[Jay-Z]
Got a condo with nuttin' but condoms in it
The same place where the rhymes is invented
So all I do is rap and sex, imagine how I stroke
See how I was flowin on my last cassette?
Rapid-fire like I'm blastin a Tec, never jam though
Never get high, never run out of ammo
Niggaz hatin n shit cause I slayed your bitch
You know your favorite, I know it made you sick
And now you're, actin raw but you never had war
Don't know how to carry your hoe, wanna marry your hoe
Now she's mad at me, cause Your Majesty, just happened to be
A pimp with a tragedy
She wanted, us to end, cause I fucked her friend
She gave me one more chance and I fucked her again
I seen her tears as she busted in, I said, "Shit..
there's a draft, shut the door bitch and come on in!"

Chorus (with variation in last line)

[Jay-Z]
Gotta vendetta even though I been better
Left him in the cold with a thin sweater
Rap niggaz on Prozac get the bozack, niggaz threw
two at me I threw fo' back, hold that
Let the dough stack, way before Biggs had the gold Ac'
Dame had the Lex black
Motherfuckers wanna test that, stress that
And right where you're stressed at, where you rest at
I suggest that, niggaz invest, in a vest, when I come through
with the glock jet black, you niggaz step back
I'm the best at, you know I ain't no apprentice to this
Me and my niggaz we invented the shit
I came into the business with this, The Originator, none greater
Jaz-O finish this shit

[Big Jaz]
Better learn, Jaz don't relax, stat ever heard of me?
Worldwide Originator, say word to me
The population holla certainly, I burn a nigga
like a third degree, see me shine so bright
Nigga I'm my light, runnin, rulin' with rigor and vigor
Nobody bigger than me and my nigga Jigga
You fly-by-nights stop jerkin beef
Heavyweight's light work to me
For the time, in this motherfucker ain't nobody hurtin me
What? Cut a patient like surgery
Who the fuck got a VS, fuckin BM's on the road
when you had to be in bed at the PM
Need the info Jaz-O the CNN
forever touchin my work is beginnin you're endin
Nigga your style's no style my style's high style
C'mon, faggot nigga gotta take the gun home
The O-R-I-G-I-N-A-T-O-R (can't FUCK with it can ya?!)

Chorus (with variations)

[Amil-lion] * repeat to fade *
Switcha flow, getcha dough
Can't fuck with this Roc-a-Fella shit doe
Switcha flow, getcha dough
Can't fuck with this Roc-a-Fella shit doe

source: ~~http://www.lyricsondemand.com/j/jayzlyrics/jiggawhatjiggawholyrics.html~~

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everchanginglight @ 2012-07-14T20:30:00

2012-07-15T01:30:37Z

"Why let the sky be the limit when we have the entire Universe."

‎"Ours is not the task of fixing the entire world all at once, but of stretching out to mend the part of the world that is within our reach. Any small, calm thing that one soul can do to help another soul…will help immensely." — Clarissa Pinkola Estés

When we walk like (we are running), we print anxiety and sorrow on the earth. We have to walk in a way that we only print peace and serenity on the earth... Be aware of the contact between your feet and the earth.
Walk as if you are kissing the earth with your feet.
~ Thich Nhat Hanh ~

Every day is a new chance to choose. Choose to change your perspective. Choose to flip the switch in your mind. Turn on the light and stop fretting about with insecurity and doubt. Choose to do your work and be free of distraction.
Choose to see the best in someone, or choose to bring out the worst in them.

Ishita Gupta

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ideas for new dress

2012-07-14T21:49:17Z

red and white or cream
chocolate, wine,
EMERALD GREEN.
Red/Green
I would do cream blouse and socks/tights with red shoes and red and deep green accessories. :)
brunette wig
Black or chocolate could word, too
http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FMtNXk.jpg&h=1AQE2LkK_AQGkj0uzD_obESew071pnx1cfKGnLv8bT4rG_A
http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2Fj9gFn.png&h=uAQG0x_MUAQFt2QBpMqT6f_tiyEzYFpOt7D66CxxztWwntw

red sweater/bolero
white tights/white blouse
no white shoes/pink wig
black cardigan/shoes an white tights/blouse
all white(blouse, tights, shoes)
not all pink
red hair accessories/red shoes
brown shoes/ white blouse/socks/red/pink head

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quote

2012-07-12T01:44:37Z

I AM

I AM the ebb and flow of creation
I AM geometry exploding perfection
I AM the lotus reaching for sunlight
I AM in love with the passion of being

I AM songbirds greeting the sunrise
I AM a child born of the moment
I AM dew anointing the morning
I AM the holy breath of freedom

I AM the shimmer of lush, green landscapes
I AM a river flowing upstream
I AM a willow dancing with shadows
I AM the open eyes of compassion

I AM the words to the song Imagine
I AM a butterfly aware of the chrysalis
I AM a pink and orange and blue skyline
I AM corn silk stalking light breezes

I AM the outcome of thunder and lightning
I AM clouds bursting forth in the desert
I AM the gold at the end of the rainbow
I AM a meadow of Queen Anne´s Lace

I AM the vibrancy and spectrum of color
I AM pipe dreams becoming authentic
I AM the smile behind indigo faces
I AM coyote rejoicing in laughter

I AM the music of Andrea Boccelli
I AM best friends with the rune of joy
I AM a hologram searching for mirrors
I AM Sophia, caretaker of wisdom

I AM the veiled mystery behind time and space
I AM the memory of homeostasis
I AM the granite guardian of silence
I AM a firefly enjoying the sunset

I AM the full moon courting the nighttime
I AM the wish of destiny´s star
I AM imagination´s inventor
I AM the essence of peace on Earth

I AM an ocean of hidden treasure
I AM the labyrinth´s passport to secrets
I AM potential contained in the void
I AM the queen of all heart´s desire

I AM a pure crystalline light shaft
I AM the line between genius and madness
I AM a sovereign, immortal being
I AM the gardener, planter of truth

I AM the alpha and the omega
I AM the key to the tree of life
I AM a circle becoming the spiral
I AM eternal, world without end

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so much growth

2012-07-11T03:25:19Z

i want to shout to the rooftops on this...but i have learned it's better to talk to only those who want to listen...not to everyone.

the universe told me in 3's that i needed to switch to the 7-3:30pm shift at work. so this week i did and was told at unity this past sunday a topic of light language was being held by a john christan and another lady at the holistic living network. it spoke to me..so i went and was able to as the universe provided to me..many gratitude and blessings belong my life and beyond my life to it....because i lived LIVED there.

I met old friends, made new ones...and was immeidately in a room full of light...full of good people. then i met john who i met at the between jobs ministiry...who knew he was not only christian.... at consious rave and other places they were talking about letting go of judgement...this showed me what it was trying to say...just because someone is christian and goes to a christian church does not mean they are not spiritual or open to other modalities of spiritually and the soul. while he was giving what brought him to this....i vibbed, both mediums/sensitive to the spiritual world..both lots of experience with gunk.....i knew it was at work....got confused with technical aspects but felt the energy and saw things through the papers of the grids that were being passed on...the lady said only learn if you are being called.....my mind was holding me back..then john and i talked and spirutally vibed. my energy was raised and we were talking but our spirits and other beings were connecting so much and it all clicked....i didn't need to speak. so blessed to have met him...then from there on and now...i am seeing multiple dimensions at once.....i saw a big version of my inner higher self with long hair and beautiful skin and body and clothing as i want to be dancing to ru paul's glamazon..and as she moved i did too...i could see what she was going to do before i did it..... i could see spirits wave to me...i tink john did...i saw a light and thought maybe if this is on i can pick up fred's poo...someone of the light told me either it was on or i can turn it on...then i saw it...then it flickered and i was told it is on on another universe/parallel.....and i could understand.....and i can understand my dog sees spirit animals....sees this world with me..is meant to be on this journey with me and grow..can communicate spiritually with me....sees the angels as i do.....i saw christ and he told me it's okay to be open to his power......and i said okay...as i said i am open an receptive to the universe 3 times as i do dailiy i felt warmth in my hands..i felt power......and i realized that i have done light language before.....without knowing it......and i knowthis is meant to be as i shifted to light.worker instead of pagan.

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quote

2012-07-08T01:55:52Z

The gift of pure love allows you to bless others and accept them without condition, granting them freedom to make their own choices.
-Neale Donald Walsch

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long time

2012-07-07T20:15:17Z

i have loved this song for so long....took me a millisecond to say yes i need to let this go..but this is yet another song that confuses the universe and i am positive only. goodbye hard to explain.

Was an honest man
Asked me for the phone
I tried to take control
Oh I don't see it that way
I don't see it that way

We shared some ideas
All obssessed with fame
Says we're all the same
Oh I don't see it that way
I don't see it that way

Raised in Carolina
I'm not like that
Trying to remind her
When we go back

I missed the last bus
I take the next train
I try, but you see
It's hard to explain
I say the right things
But act the wrong way
I like it right here
But I cannot stay
I watch the tv
Forget what I'm told
Well I am too young
And they are too old
The joke is on you
Cos this is a zoo
You're right, it's true

He says he can't decide
I shake my head to say
Everythings just great
Oh I just can't remember
I just can't remember

Raised in Carolina (She says)
I'm not like that
Trying to remind her
When we go back
I say the right things
But act the wrong way
I like it right here
But I cannot stay
I watch the tv
Forget what I'm told
Well I am too young
And they are too old
I'll make it you see
I'm ever so pleased
Pretend to be nice
So I can be mean
I missed the last bus
I take the next train
I try, but you see
It's hard to explain
Read more at http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/36540/#2oFOs70mfjgE8iQs.99

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thru the eyes of ruby

2012-07-07T19:33:10Z

gosh how many times did i listen to this growing up? this could be why i have so many confusion growing up. i notice a lot of songs i recently deleted including this one had some positive thinking as well as negative or downright depressing thoughts..and that is bringing confusion into my life...i no longer want to confuse the universe. today i choose to only show the universe i want good and positivity in my life!

wrap me up in always, ~~and drag me in with maybe~~s
your innocence is treasure, ~~your innocence is death~~
~~your innocence is all i have~~
breathing underwater, and living under glass
and if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
i believe in never, i believe in all the way
but belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith
~~and faith can't help you to escape~~
and with this ring i wed thee true
and with this ring i wed thee now
and with this ring i play so dead
but no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
to the revelations of fresh faced youth
no one will come to save you
so speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
but youth is wasted on the young
your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
my love for you just can't explain
~~why we're forever frozen, f~~orever beautiful,
forever lost inside ourselves
the night has come to hold us young

Read more at http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/438/#UOL1QhOoQUqLZvoo.99

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bad day lyrics

2012-07-07T17:53:18Z

well with a title like this this is obviously bringing some lower level vibrations into your life. no wonder how this was a favorite song of mind growing up that i would be depressed. i feel no need to listen to it one more time to say goodbye..but i will cross out metaphorically and spiritually what is no longer serving my greatest good and bid it farewell.

I had a bad day again
She said i would not understand
She left a note that said I'm sorry, I
I had a bad day again

She spilled her coffee broke a shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said I'm sorry, I
I had a bad day again

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
I had a bad day again

She said I would not understand
She left a note and said I'm sorry I
I had a bad day again
No,

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
Oh I had a bad day again

She said I would not understand
She left a note that said I'm sorry, I
I had a bad day again
She left a note that said I'm sorry, I
I had a bad day
No,
No,
No,
No,
Alright
Oh,
Oh.

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quote

2012-07-06T02:01:12Z

Give thanks for unknown blessings already on the way.

~ Native American Wisdom ♥

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quote

2012-07-01T03:46:00Z

Believe in Love’s infinite journey,
For it’s your own,
For you are Love!
~Rumi

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fun financial goals

2012-06-30T21:10:32Z

i'm going to make a list in an order of extras i want to buy.

the list

pads 1 regular 1 heavy/overnight
lolita shoes:shoes size 39: http://clobbaonline.com/index.php?p=1_5 Custom House Shoes Model 1040 in black Custom House Shoes Model 082 in deep brown Custom House Shoes Model 1060 in brown http://www.clobbaonline.com/index.php?p=1_28 Secret Shop Star Engineer Boots in lavendar
lolita blouses
1/2 cotton tights
~~fleece/fuzzy pajama pants~~ ~~www.pajamacity.com/Womens-Footed-Pajamas/products/1~~54/
lolita jsks and skirts 3/4 goth-kittykat.livejournal.com/484780.htm
potted herb
http://soulportraitsbycharity.vpweb.com/About-the-Artist-Sizes---Price.html
wig http://lockshopwigs.com/
fake lolita nails

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chirp

2012-06-30T21:05:55Z

The more you are motivated by love,
The more fearless and free your action will be.
~Dalai Lama

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